You’re back again
Calling me, texting me like an old homey lover friend
Wrapping around me in the disguise of comfort
Telling me not to pick up the phone or paper or a pen
Suffocating every cry for help
Whispering in my ear that I don’t need anyone to dry my tears
Pretending to adore me when all the while you’re making love to my fears
When I cry you make me swallow the pain
Reminding me to put in another load of laundry
and that I forgot to eat once again
When I finally get from under the heavy weight of your hug
And have a moment when I don’t feel sadness coursing through my veins like a drug
Just when I feel so good that all I want to do is run free and embrace the love
My clients need me to meet a deadline
My love would rather not spend the time
Homework needs an extra review
There’s so many dishes piling up that I need a clone or two
And I realize that I don’t have time for you
I sit down to take a deep breath
Trying to meditate or sleep or rest
And it doesn’t take long for you to slip back in
Climb me as if I wanted you to take me again
Wrap your cold hands around my hips and waist
And bring tears to my once smiling face
You tell me to turn off the phone
Cause you love me and want us to be all alone
And whatever plans I had today
Have to wait until you’ve had your way
Body, mind and soul
All the work I did to move you along your way
Over ten years now seems just like yesterday
And the only comfort that I have this go around is knowing
That God sent me angels this time to keep me going
And although I can’t keep you from inviting yourself in
You will not take control of my paper and pen
I can only pray that this time old friend
That our visit will be shortened
Because I refuse to give in
(C) Mary Tonita Austin (a/k/a Toni Love)
I’m sorry you’re going through this again. XOXO
Thanks Liz. I appreciate your support and thank you for taking the time to read and comment. xxoo
Deep…but oh so True
I know you know I know 🙂 Thanks for taking the time to stop through and comment Supreem!
Hugs my Sis!!
Thanks Sis! xxoo
What a blessing to have the talent to move through your grief through poetry. What a blessing to have the wisdom to know how to take good care of yourself at a time it would be so easy not to. What a blessings your words are to others like me who needed them to help in my own recovery. You are a blessing!
Awwww..thank you and bless you TAHIRA! I truly appreciate you always and especially for taking the time to read, comment and remind me that I am not alone. Much love and respect Sis!
Amplified Bible (AMP)
14 Do not let your hearts be troubled (distressed, agitated). You believe in and adhere to and trust in and rely on God; believe in and adhere to and trust in and rely also on Me.
2 In My Father’s house there are many dwelling places (homes). If it were not so, I would have told you; for I am going away to prepare a place for you.
3 And when (if) I go and make ready a place for you, I will come back again and will take you to Myself, that where I am you may be also.
4 And [to the place] where I am going, you know the way.
Thank you for taking the time to read and provide comfort Mr. Pitts, God Bless!