Category Archives: Addiction

“Grief Waits” – Original Poetry by Toni Love

This was written a few weeks after my father transitioned, not for sympathy but to support the little girl inside yearning to tell her story. Not sure I’m finished with it, but here it is: Continue reading

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Memories of a War Veteran..I have not forgotten

My Uncle was a Vietnam War Veteran. He was fortunate to be one of the ones to come home alive, but the person who left never really came home. He was sad, he was depressed, he struggled with the choices he was forced to make at war and never really felt comfortable in his skin when he came home. He was a walking casualty of war. Continue reading

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Keeping it Real – Original Poetry 12/15/13

Will the calls and cards and letters

Soak up every grief-stained tear

Will his grandchildren cease to miss him

At graduations and weddings from year to year Continue reading

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So Deep, Part Two – Original Poetry

Is love really supposed to feel this way
Entranced yet terrified that it could just as easily go astray
Don’t want to admit how in love I am with you today
So I close my eyes and pray that your love will always stay

So deep Continue reading

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Watch my debut with the Peace, Love and Poetry ensemble. “”Just a Little Thank You Note” @ WCL in Delaware” on YouTube

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Sick and Tired; Confessions of a Reformed Junk Food Junkie

As an independent mom, I found myself the past few years relying on the fast food restaurants way too much. It was so easy as we rushed from one after school activity to another to just drive through somebody’s window, order, and shovel it in, in the car on the way to the next place. My kids loved it, and I’m not sure if they were more addicted to the food or the toys. I had a lot less dishes to wash, and could spend more time with the kids, so it seemed like a win-win situation. Continue reading

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But for the Grace…

I know there’s been so much that’s already been said about the senseless killings of the Sandy Hook Elementary School children and staff, and so many early judgements about the killer, his family and why it happened. But I feel … Continue reading

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Just a Little Thank You Note… Original Poetry 5/3/84

Just a Little Thank You Note….

I just wanted to
thank you
for the sweet pain of a first love affair

thank you
for the soft melodies that made me forget
that we had no protection

if these three months hadn’t happened,
there would be no Miles, no Klugh, no Spyro Gyra
no Marsalis, no Brubeck, no Franks, no ‘BGO

without this final semester of false lovin’
there would be no jazz
no duets in the shower
no passion at 5am
no nights alone

no “real” thing, no “you mean more than”
no “I DO care”
no “sorry but I won’t be home tonight…”

no
other woman

no heartache, no confusion, no hurt
no faked emotions, no hate, no frustration
no
gynecologist

no cold, empty nights, no lonely mornings, no sympathy
no apathy, no excuses, no wounded egos, no memories
no BITCH

so thank you
for the missed classes
and for teaching me how to scurry across campus at 1AM
to fulfill your needs and to find my own
thank you for the use of your towels, your soap, your q-tips, your cocoa butter, your washcloth, your shirts, your stereo, your typewriter
thank you for using me

for losing me
in your arms, in your kisses and in your thoughts

for losing track of my existence
for having no brain of your own
for loving and leaving me for your best friend’s girlfriends’ girlfriend
for forgetting about our ‘something real’

for the lies
for cutting all ties
sooooo graciously

for not being MAN enough to tell me about her

for making me realize that some men have no right to my loving
and are only out to please
THEMSELVES

for letting me see the reality of a relationship with a basketball player
who snorts, tokes, drinks, brags boasts and
SITS THE BENCH

but really

THANK
YOU

for the strength to start over again
and to take the time out to love someone WORTH loving…

MYSELF

Original writing: 5/3/84
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For My Girl Bev (found the poem!)

In my earlier blogpost about my dear friend Bev, I referenced a poem I wrote for her. Well, I just found it and I guess that means I am supposed to post it. Here it is Continue reading

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Tangled

It’s been quite a while since I’ve sat down to write even though so many ideas have entered my mind since my last post. The summer is an insanely busy time for me and now that the kids are back in school … Continue reading

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