Category: Keeping the Love Alive

Save the Date for the Toni Love CD Release Party! August 22nd!

Toni Love with Robb and Pauline Houston McCall
Toni Love with Robb and Pauline Houston McCall

Three years ago, I finally got the nerve to attend an open mic and step up on the stage to recite a poem I had written just a few days prior. In just a few weeks I will be sending seven mixed and mastered original poems that I have recorded with Musician, Producer, Arranger and all around wonderful being, Robb McCall of  Charging Bull Massive Productions. Exactly three months from today I will be presenting my first work of art to the public. I am still pinching myself. When I stepped onto that stage a few years ago, I was shaking so badly that I had to hold the microphone with both hands and I could even feel my face trembling! The band played behind me, I held on to the paper in front of me and with the love and support of my family and friends attending, I made it though the poem and received a warm, supportive applause from the audience. Even though I thought the crowd was being more than generous with their applause, a host of a much larger open mic approached me and suggested I come out to his venue. A month later I went to the Harvest/Spoken Soul 215 to sign up on their open mic list and whenever I could, I would attend venues throughout the area to hear poetry and possibly get a chance to recite my own. None of what happened was planned. I just opened myself up to the possibilities of it all, and gave myself permission to explore the unknown. At this point in my life, I have awakened the passionate writer/poet that laid dormant for decades and she does not want to stop. But I am first a Mother and an entrepreneur so I take it a day at a time, I take suggestions from those whom I admire and respect and love, and if the door opens, I walk through it. And here I am, planning my CD Release party. Toni has been recovered and restored and for that reason the title of my CD is “Toni Love: The Restoration”. My celebration will be at the Community Arts Center in Wallingford, PA on Saturday August 22nd at 8:00pm. The entry fee is $12 and includes light fare, live performances by some of the greatest artists in the area, beer and wine and a DJ for your dancing pleasure after the show. CDs and Toni Love T-shirts will be available for purchase. Please “like” my Facebook Page and join the party if you can. I have supplied the link to the Event below. I hope you come, and I hope you will enjoy The Restoration as much as I have. I thank you for the part that you have played in my journey.

Peace and Blessings ~ Toni Love
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I Surrender – Original Poetry by Toni Love

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I Surrender

Been tossing and turning all night
just as my weary eyelids begin to close
they reflect scenes of you and I struggling through our first fight

My mind replays the who what when and why
my head tells my heart not to break down and cry
cause it doesn’t understand how it can love you and ache to hate you at the same time

I want to stay angry so I scan my memories for reasons to leave you, to ignore you, to believe you

The more we talk the more I see
how important communication is to strengthen the bond between you and me
for it dissolves the mounds of fear built up over the years
from the deceit of those who could not love me

Yes I want to stay angry convincing myself its easier to be alone than in love
But you love me unconditionally and refuse to leave me be

A moment of weakness and you climb my wall
I finally take your call

Intentionally sending through words that you know will melt my heart
not to mention my other body parts

The next thing I know you’re at my door
and we’re holding each other with promises and whispers of forgiveness
as our clothes hit the floor

Our lips meet and I forget what all that arguing was for

We come together and become one

As I surrender

(c) M. Tonita Austin aka Toni Love  1/25/15

Thanks for visiting! Love, Toni

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Original Poetry 1/13/15

Undercover Lover

If you were not there
When empty souls glanced at me
from a distance
False eyes pierced at my heart
And rainbows failed to caress me
Then tell me my tainted love
Why are you here now

1/13/15 Toni Love

Thanks for visiting! Love, Toni

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Come out and support me at The Collective, August 15th!

The Collective Open Mic is a warm, encouraging, non-judgmental family of poets, writers and artists and I am so thrilled to be asked to warm up the mic for the featured poets on Friday, August 15th at La Rose Jazz Club. I hope you can come out to support me and support the arts! #loveistheanswer

Collective Aug15

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I Want To Get Off – Original poetry

I approach you carefully hesitating all the while
Feeling my body being pulled closer because you entice me and I love your style

So sexy the way you dip when you move
Silky smooth colored outer skin and your softness inside makes me want to sink in to you
No doubt why so many others fall in line just to be in your presence
And here I am amongst them unashamed waiting for my turn to experience the same ecstasy

I stand patiently with my heart quickly racing
Thousands of beats per minute fill my heaving chest
As you motion in my direction

My body temperature elevates my palms are moist waiting to feel you inside
Breathing heavily, approaching cautiously til you pull me close and wrap yourself around my waist and outer thigh

I hold you tight and close my
eyes
Too afraid to just let go and enjoy the ride
I trust the way you ease into it gently and take it slow
The excitement builds and my heart sinks down to my feet and I forget how really fast we are going

And just when my climax begins, you drop me and leave me helpless
No air to breathe, no support  under my feet and I don’t feel the passion anymore

I’m scared and I don’t know what’s coming next
I can’t trust that you are secure enough to protect me
Even holding me as tight as you can, I still scream from fear
because I’m afraid that when I trust you the most that you’ll drop me

So I beg you to stop playing with my heart
To unwrap yourself from my torso and release me
Let me walk away with my dignity, without feeling ashamed about what I let you do to me.

I foolishly trusted you from the start but now that you’ve shaken both my confidence and my heart

You will never convince me again to ride a roller coaster , I’ll stick to the kiddie go-carts!

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© M Tonita Austin 3/23/14

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Happy No Fear , original poetry

New year and I’m ready to release the pain
No more capturing old Polaroid type snapshots of hurt inside the tear- stained crevices in my heart.
The things you said, the regrets and the unspoken daggers thrown at all parts of my body have bruised me enough.
My heart has hardened and I’ve been trying every chemical, oil and homeopathic medicine that I could find
To massage in with fingers worn and paper-thin from
So much kneading
Because I keep needing the love to make its way in
Trying to force myself to love again
Daring them all  to penetrate the walls of plaque hardened around my heart
No longer will I leave my canals open and vulnerable with sun  drenched thighs
Yearning to be touched from within
Because this fight I will win.
I am worthy of a life free of fear
And I deserve to have someone I trust to pull me near
Whisper “I love you” sensual and sincerely in my ear
And not cringe from disbelief

Because it’s a new year
And I’m ready

So goodbye fear

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(c) M. Tonita Austin 1/4/14

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Check outToni’s Room 2013 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2013 annual report for this blog. I started this blog a little over three years ago and I have poured my heart and soul out here. I want to thank all who have taken the time to read, comment or both and I hope that I helped someone by being open and honest with you about my life’s journey. Please feel free to share and subscribe! Thanks again and I wish you a blessed, joyful and prosperous 2014!

Toni

Here’s an excerpt:

A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 2,200 times in 2013. If it were a cable car, it would take about 37 trips to carry that many people.

Click here to see the complete report.

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Can’t Get you out of my head – Original Poetry

carmen1Your voice slides inside my mind like silk panties between my thighs

and I can’t get you out of my head

so sweet and so unique I could listen to your sexiness until I fell off to sleep

But for now I’ll just imagine you laying your body across my bed

yearning to feel  your touch your lips and waiting for the first passionate kiss

and I can’t believe I’m capable of feeling like this

have I finally met my match, a romantic whose words are as sweet as a Hershey’s kiss

or my soul mate able to touch me so deeply that I can’t resist

your eyes, and your smile leave me yearning for your loving caress

imagining you and I hand in hand heart to heart

makes me feel warm and sticky like honey dripping down the back of my dress

I want you, you want me and we both find ourselves weak from the thought

of opening up our souls and hearts as they intertwine into an eternal rope of passion and ecstasy

you make love to my mind and I can’t say no

I surrender all

you are my destiny

just lay my body down on your lavender-scented bed

cause I can’t get you out of my head.

by M. Tonita Austin (c) 8/31/13

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