I Surrender

Been tossing and turning all night
just as my weary eyelids begin to close
they reflect scenes of you and I struggling through our first fight

My mind replays the who what when and why
my head tells my heart not to break down and cry
cause it doesn’t understand how it can love you and ache to hate you at the same time

I want to stay angry so I scan my memories for reasons to leave you, to ignore you, to believe you

The more we talk the more I see
how important communication is to strengthen the bond between you and me
for it dissolves the mounds of fear built up over the years
from the deceit of those who could not love me

Yes I want to stay angry convincing myself its easier to be alone than in love
But you love me unconditionally and refuse to leave me be

A moment of weakness and you climb my wall
I finally take your call

Intentionally sending through words that you know will melt my heart
not to mention my other body parts

The next thing I know you’re at my door
and we’re holding each other with promises and whispers of forgiveness
as our clothes hit the floor

Our lips meet and I forget what all that arguing was for

We come together and become one

As I surrender

(c) M. Tonita Austin aka Toni Love  1/25/15

Thanks for visiting! Love, Toni