The Day I Left God I laid the red carnation on top of her casket Collapsing through showers of grief The sight of them lowering the flesh and bones of my mother Into the cold hard ground was too much for my fragile womb to bear I had prophesied years before That her life would... Continue Reading →
New Shoes: My Mother’s Day Gift from Above
Even though I was a mother myself, all of the Mother's Day commercials with scenes of children hugging and delivering gifts and flowers to their mothers trickled into my joy like Chinese water torture.
“Grief Waits” – Original Poetry by Toni Love
This was written a few weeks after my father transitioned, not for sympathy but to support the little girl inside yearning to tell her story. Not sure I'm finished with it, but here it is:
Happy No Fear , original poetry
I am worthy of a life free of fear And I deserve to have someone I trust to pull me near Whisper "I love you" sensual and sincerely in my ear And not cringe from disbelief
Keeping it Real – Original Poetry 12/15/13
Will the calls and cards and letters Soak up every grief-stained tear Will his grandchildren cease to miss him At graduations and weddings from year to year
I’m back!
It's been several months since I've written anything on my blog and I apologize to my loyal followers for the long absence.
Dear Grief
Wow You're back again Calling me, texting me like an old homey lover friend Wrapping around me in the disguise of comfort Telling me not to pick up the phone or paper or a pen Suffocating every cry for help Whispering in my ear that I don't need anyone to dry my tears Pretending to... Continue Reading →
God Has Answered
It's so amazing when you can look back on the major events in your life and see where God has not necessarily answered your exact prayer, but gave you exactly what you needed. I wanted so desperately to have another boy. My son was so easy-going, mild-tempered, played happily by himself, ate whatever I put... Continue Reading →
Toni's Room 