renewing love – Toni's Room

If a tree falls in the forest and no one hears it
Does it really make a noise?

Can you call yourself my man
If you spend less time with me than with
yourself, your friends and the “boys”?

You say how much you love me
And are always thinking of me, yet here I sit all alone
No sweet conversations or close encounters, just an occasional voice on my mobile phone

Reasons why we’re not holding each other, snuggling up, watching T.V.
There’s always something else going on, and you can’t spend time with me
Too tired to come when I need you, yet so much energy after you get me off the phone

So why should I sit here all alone..

Maybe I’m too much for one man
I need more love than you can do
Do I find a homey lover friend to fill in when you’re just “doing you”?

Is this the love that I always wanted?
Is this how love was really meant to be, if after time passes and the love gets solid
The romance falls silent just like the tree?

Is your passionate heart still beating, when I’m near do you still get chills?
Or when I’m laying there beside you,
Is it silently contemplating the next thrill?

Can I feel your arms around me
Can I nibble on your ear
Can we drift into the morning
Fall asleep in the comfort of the easy chair

Or did the heartbeat of this romance fall silent because no one was around to hear?

Can we cut into the silence
Find the sound of you and me
Let our passion create the sound waves
So there’s no doubt we feel the vibrations of love’s tree

Can we?

Original poetry- August 2012

So mad at myself for letting you into my heart

Once broken and scarred yet beating

Your love mended it with each soft caress

But now I don’t know where you begin and I start

You see I loved you so long ago

And though my ego would never let it show

I was so afraid of needing you that I had to let you go

And I did

But true love never ends and we were destined to meet up again

I couldn’t pretend

I knew you were embedded deep beneath my skin

And though they caressed and kissed me here and there

They could never melt my heart from within

So here I am again and damn

I don’t want to need you

Its decades later and it happened so fast

Coming back into your life when you needed a friend

and once again

I couldn’t resist you

I tried with all my might to push you away but you kept holding me tight

Your arms so strong and warm they made me melt

I started sinking deep into overwhelming emotions that I’ve never felt

And still I’m trying not to need you

Whenever we kiss I feel an electric shock

that beats your hands to my thigh before I can moan “stop”

So much energy between us

that every touch of your skin next to mine

Sends a chill up and down my spine

And I can’t deny that my body needs you too

Can I trust you, are you true

Do you love me as much as you say you do

Will you leave me, will you stay

Or is it just a game to see how long I’ll stay

Will you

ever

need

me?

The passion doesn’t ever seem to die

And as much as I try and try and try.

Even when you give me a reason why

I should walk away and say goodbye

I can’t seem to bring myself to leave you

It may not make sense to you

And you may think I’m crazy

I’d rather push you out of my arms now than take the chance

Of one day hearing you call someone else your baby.

My love for you is deep and to the core

My heart still beats faster when I see you walk through my door

I don’t know what I would do without your love

But I do know for sure

That I don’t want to need you.

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Can You Hear It?

I don’t want to need you – Original Poetry 2012