I was put on display, positioned to be the star; the one to crawl out of the pit. The one child who would make my daddy proud that any of us were born. The savior. Such a heavy burden for a little five year old girl, and at that moment I had no knowledge of any of these expectations, nor how they would shape my life.
My Angels always show up for the after-party…
It's just a part of my reality now. I've accepted the heartache that wells up inside my soul when the Mother's Day commercials start to pour in. Even though I am a mother, and I get my props this time of year from the media (and boy how that makes me feel valued!), I still... Continue Reading →
Foolish Me _ Original Poetry 2/21/85
FOOLISH ME Look what I done gone and did! I sent you my poem MY POEM Submerged in bittersweet pain full of my down to earth ancient free to be me feelings loud and raging so you would know how you hurt me just how much I hurt and how to be human... Continue Reading →
Finally Over_Original Poetry 1/9/1985
Finally Over When I lost you I found myself and I hurt I pained for too long thinking of how foolish I had been to believe in you But my hurt turned into poetry and dance and I wrote and danced until I filled up the emptiness inside of me The void that set inside... Continue Reading →
God Has Answered
It's so amazing when you can look back on the major events in your life and see where God has not necessarily answered your exact prayer, but gave you exactly what you needed. I wanted so desperately to have another boy. My son was so easy-going, mild-tempered, played happily by himself, ate whatever I put... Continue Reading →
I want some old school love… Original Poetry
I'm yearning for some old school love. That sweet love that kept you up on the phone all night. Not thinking of short verses for his Twitter page but long, drawn out sighs and movement from lips to thighs sweet nothings that fill your ear and make you want to disappear into the abyss of... Continue Reading →
I don’t want to need you – Original Poetry 2012
Whenever we kiss I feel an electric shock that beats your hands to my thigh before I can moan "stop" So much energy between us that every touch of your skin next to mine Sends a chill up and down my spine And I can't deny that my body needs you too
This is the best time of your life
"I just wanted to tell you to enjoy this time in your life to the fullest because these are the best days of your life." These words really hit home for me because aside from me taking my own personal inventory, I often wonder what others see when they look at the past year of my life. What do my ancestors think of me? What compliments or constructive criticism would they offer? Do they even see what's going on, and if so what's their perspective? With all of their wisdom, what advice would they give me for the coming year?
Tis the Season…for Football!
My son's father didn't want him to play football, so I respected his wishes and didn't pursue it. Then one day my son wrote me a note that said "Mom, I love football and I really, really want to play football." I was so touched by his note and I knew that even though his father was against it, as a mother, I felt it was my duty to give life to his passions.
Joy in the Journey
I have to admit that I was never the type of Oprah fan that watched her show every day or even taped it or stayed up at night to see what it was unless a friend called and said "you have to see this!". I never tried to get on any of the Oprah's favorite... Continue Reading →
Toni's Room 